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last updated: 2/24/11

I miss RPing. A lot. I have pretty much since I left but I don't know if I can deal with OOC drama and I'm barely online anymore these days. But I miss the escapism of being someone else. It was only made worse by me opening up google docs to make doing homework from various locations easier and finding three thread logs from MCMLXXXI and two from Lockewood. It'd be nice to be able to find a nice rp group like '81 was and not have much to stress over. That was 3 years ago! It's been almost a year since I've been out of the picture. Like I said, I miss it. :\

Once upon a time I modded a comm over on LJ pretty much by myself. This comm was active for well over four years and I am still friends with the majority of the people I met through it. I promised one of them that I would make a new comm, trying to get those of us who still wanted to RP back into the game. She was an excellent Snape and try as I did when I was actually RPing myself, I couldn't get her to join any of the games I was in when Snape came up vacant. So I've been trying to piece together this comm on my own between my full time job, full time classes, and being generally exhausted. So far it is going okay. Slowly, but okay. I've been wanting to get back into RP anyway... At this rate it might happen by the new year.

I'm MarauderSky134 if anyone else has gotten in yet.

IJ was trying to delete my ill-fated Remus journal from Between Worlds. That comm was a train-wreck, but reading the application I still had posted there kind of made me sad that I never really got to play him. I haven't played Remus since Lockewood and I kind of miss him. Even if Sirius was super-fun to play at Cataclysm. But no! I've only been away from RP for a month. I can't go back on that now. Maybe next quarter when my schedule lightens up a bit.

I don't know if I like all of these emails I've been getting from IJ lately. First of all, I've kept away from here for over a month. The emails made me come back. But just because I've taken a rest from RP for an undetermined amount of time does not mean that I want all of my old RP journals to disappear. I still have icons stored there, sometimes it's fun to look back and read old posts and such... Thing is, should I even bother if everyone else lets their old journals go?

I've quit 3 of the 4 games I was in and I'm considering leaving the last one. They've said there's only about a month's worth of plot left, but I just don't know what to do. Should I stick it out? Or just leave, seeing as I have no ambition to play anywhere, much less there. I'm moving things back to Livejournal and leaving Insanejournal completely, I think. This wasn't supposed to be that active of a journal in the first place.

I updated Firefox and now I no longer have LJLogin... I feel lost. I don't know if I remember my usernames. I need it baaaack.

after a week of vacation i don't feel like getting back to school or work and i have to do both tomorrow. suck.

If every other Thursday this quarter will end up like today, I might not survive. I got a few RP things finished, but not much. All of my characters save Louis still need threads. At Malis. Only place I've actually been doing anything.

After two and a half weeks I finally feel better. I still have a cough and I have a handful of antibiotics I need to finish off, but I can breath, smell things, and taste things as well. My ears aren't swollen shut or whatever the hell was going on with them. I'm looking to start working out at the local YMCA and get up off of my ass. I only just looked at all of the comms I'm in and nothing's happened at any of them for a few days and I'm okay with that. We'll see where things go, but I might be going into RP retirement again soon. Maybe. Unless something fun comes up somewhere or I actually get motivated enough to finish the comm I've been working on for over a year now.

Whenever I get sick, I do it well. Went to the doctor on Sunday and was told I have bronchitis, a sinus infection, and an ear infection. Nearly four days on antibiotics and tonight was the first day I felt well enough to spend the majority of the day sitting up instead of sleeping on the couch. I'm trying to catch up on games, but so far I haven't gotten far. Just some skimming. I might end up dropping Dog Days too. I like Frank, but he's supposed to have done a plot line awhile ago with another player and I've PMed this person on IJ and emailed them as well to no avail and then I got sick and it all went to hell. I'm not sure what to do at the moment. I'm still not terribly inspired.

I'm freeeeeee~

Shot my last assignment for photo design on Sunday, edited the pics for that assignment and the previous assignment Monday morning. Turned everything in. Last night I wrote up my 3rd paper in psychology and emailed that in to the instructor who was complaining that people emailed him in the early morning with papers. Is your alarm clock wired to your email or something? Spent four hours doing window mounts for five pictures and did a decent job until the last one when my brain apparently broke and I cut the window part of the mount about an inch too large and I had to do it again. It was still fucked up, but I ran out of boards so it just has to work.

My point? Won't be back in RP land until Thursday. I have to write my final paper for psychology tomorrow when I get back from class. Not that anything is going on. I think RP everywhere is in some kind of lull at the moment and really, with my work load at the moment, I think I'm okay with it for the time being. Though I do have to bitch a little. A tag every two days? Why?

Oh, also I am sick. I can't help but to think its karma somehow. I pretended I was sick so much that I actually became sick. It just sort of appeared out of nowhere as well. Fun times.

When will this quarter end??? It's been a nightmare!!

Ughhh, this feeling of dread won't go away until I have everything finished. I have TWO projects that I need to convert to B&W, edit, print, and the five pictures that I have to do window mounts for. I HATE window mounts! But I can do it. I'll just be living in the Digital Print Lab for the next few days.

Needless to say, I might be scarce RP-wise until Wednesday. That was the point of this.

Uhh, I have no idea what to do with half of my characters right now. Maybe I'm just tired.

@ dogdays
Frank - ??? He has scheduled threads but that's still a few days away. I never know what to do with him. He's random. He's updated about pie, hair, forgetting his wife's birthday, and a potential office/rec room.
- Things seem active there, but mostly the younger gen characters. Adults pop up every so often, but they definitely seem to be on the sidelines.

@ cataclysm_rpg
Sirius - ?????????????? Sirius has been weird since he got away from the Death Eaters. Maybe it's because nobody interacts with him except for James and recently Remus but they've all seriously had a thread going for a month now. Everyone else in that comm is in a coma or something.
Hestia - She's the only one I know what I'm doing with. She'll be dead soon.
Fabian - I think doing his app was a waste of time. Or I should have taken another approach with him. Turns out amnesia isn't as good of a plot idea as I thought it would be.
Evan - He does nothing. DEs are boring in that comm and he's a prissy little jerk.
- Bleh. The concept was good, but when one of your mods doesn't seem to even want to play here, that has to be saying something. I still really like Sirius. I enjoy playing him most of the time.

@ fidelity_rpg
Hugo - Just got into another argument with his sister, but the only other character in the comm who really talks to him seems to be hibernating.
Bess - Useless. She pops in with something to say every so often, but she doesn't have much to do otherwise.
- I like Hugo, but I don't know if I want to drop another character here. Like I've mentioned before, I feel like dropping the two I've already dropped from this comm was taken personally as some people haven't spoken to me since.

@ malis
Brendan - I'm at a loss for him right now. I've been wanting to write up a journal for him, but he's got nothing going on. Yeah, his brother still hates him, but he's not dragging that up. Though he might mention how hilarious he thinks it is that he's expected to apologize.
Louis - He's in a thread with Lizzy right now and honestly it's the most fun I've had with Louis in awhile outside of a thread with Auri because they're just too cute together.
Kayla - She's like in the middle of things right now. She's in a thread with Frank and she commented on her brother's journal entry so she's kind of in limbo at the moment.
- Things seem really slow. I kind of feel like I might have missed something somewhere. Plus I've had an app put in there for a little over a week now and still haven't heard back.

I never thought it would happen, but I think my RP interest is ebbing. But who knows, I might stumble upon an awesome plot in one of the comms I'm in and completely change my mind. Stranger things have happened.

I think whatever I do next rp-wise though, Mayes is coming along. Who knows if I'll ever get to play her, but she's a crazy bitch and might be fun.

I dropped AF. I really thought it was going to be one of those things where I say I will, but never do but I did today. As much as I like Miles, liking him isn't a good enough reason to keep him. I should have done this sooner. Posting a request for plot and getting nothing in return should've been a sign.

Next to go is Fidelity. I get the feeling that when I dropped Cerberus and Rema there, it was taken a little personally. I'm trying to figure out how to quit the game altogether without the same thing happening again. The same situation as AF though, really. I like Hugo, but he really has no plot with anybody except Ceridwyn and that's sporadic and kind of random. Bess has plot with no one. She just gets everyone telling her how nice she is and that's usually the end of it.

I shouldn't have gone out for new comms like I did. I joined Dog Days, which I don't mind when I can find things for Frank to do or people for him to talk to, but when I picked Demelza up there it was kind of a big mistake and she was dropped maybe a week or two later. I should have known Miles wouldn't last when I had such a hard time finishing his app in the first place. It took nearly an entire month.

I need to actually come up with something for Louis to do, other than Auri. Haha. Oh, and babysitting. I dunno though. I've never really been able to integrate him into any plot successfully, other than plot those two have together. I really want to get Kayla active too before everyone starts dying.

its hard to write crazy without it seeming like i'm trying too hard. it probably didn't help that i kept repeating it but it needs to be known that she's CRAZY

i think i'm going to have to leave af soon. try as i might, i can't think of anything for miles to do there. i'm considering dropping fidelity entirely too. it's the only comm i can go a full week without checking and nothing new be there. although cataclysm is like that too sometimes and i like playing sirius there... hestia might have to die though. she hasn't done anything in weeks.

sigh. i bogged myself down too much, i think.

i want a badass female DE somewheres. the only DE i have anywhere is a whiny baby who just gets stabbed a lot. kayla could be badass, but she's not a DE and her brother has to die first. and chris dying will make me sad because it'll make her sad.